whoever created wii was a genius! I have burned an entire day's worth of calories in a week. like that's crazy right? Pat and I are really working hard to attempt to beat each other at the amount of time we're on the wii. it's difficult because we only have one wii-mote. (hint hint, birthday is in 4 1/2 months...)

As you likely saw the melt down in my last post this one is a little more up-beat. no I'm still not pregnant. yes I'm trying to lose weight, yes I'm still posting useless information and watching really bad reality tv. but there are some new things

obviously the wii has really helped. there's something about being able to watch that graph go down on a daily basis that makes me really happy, and it encourages me to keep going. even if it is in kilos. Pat and I have tried to "fake the system out" by seeing what each other do, but no luck. *shrugs* we're both okay with that.

Every once in a while I think God might be waiting for me to do something to allow him to let me have a baby. I don't know what that is. and every so often I feel like I've blown my chance. maybe I'm not supposed to be a mom. that would totally suck. and now I've depressed myself.

okay, focus on losing weight, focus on new Sunday School adventure, focus on.. anything... *sigh* maybe it was just like me finding Pat in the first place. like it would happen when I was distracted and wasn't waiting but it's SO hard not to think about it. I mean EVERYONE is getting pregnant and I'm not. It stinks.

le sigh
off to play sims and pretend.
Rs