two posts in two days? wow...

you know the song "Joy unspeakable"? That's really how I feel.

The day is grey, and gloomy and dank and miserable, but I am so elated in my spirit that there are just no words to describe it! I mean... I literally woke up singing "Jesus put a song in my heart."

if anyone knows where I can find the guitar music for it I'd love it!

Last night I went to sleep thinking of God and after visiting Salvation army and meeting some... interesting characters and adding them to my prayer list, I came home thinking God is so good!

a friend staying at Teen challenge lost his aunt and his brother in one weekend to suicides. We arrived back at the center and all I could do was cry out to God for my brother-in-Christ. I've seen what stressors like this can do to someone and it often means they abandon the program and leave. and my heart breaks.


I tried to sing my song on my own,

But then I found out I was singing alone.

Then Jesus sang with me,

We sang in harmony.

Now I am singing His song.

Oo.. I'm singing His song.





Jesus put the song in my heart,He turned my life around,

He gave me a treasure,

The heart of a servant.

Jesus put the song in my heart,A joyful melody,

That sings of His wonderful love.




This living in Saturday mode is amazing!
why haven't I thought of this before?
Praise the Lord!
Ruthi

wow! I have to tell you this has been one of the most eye opening weeks I've had in a long time.

first I realize I have created unto myself an island and therefore no one thinks to pray for me or hang with me because I never tell anyone what's going on in my life.

secondly, I change that and start telling people things and before long I have what I can only call a Prayer warrior on my side! She's amazing! If I wasn't thinking of the name Bonnie before, I am now! *happy sighs*

thirdly, after this recent graduation with Teen challenge (God love him) My eyes have been opened to just the full power of God in a person's life! I mean I watched a man break down and cry in front of everyone when the spirit of God fell on him... it was amazing.

Fourthly (this is becoming quite a list) over this weekend, I've been filled with the hope and anticipation that I hope I have everyday of my life! I mean... okay, so I want to live in Saturday mode okay? like that feeling between Good Friday and Easter Sunday. that Hope and anticipation that God is going to do something big! he is going to move in a powerful way and some monumental event is coming!

and finally (and this is just for the week) I've determined that God is so amazing and I have not been doing my part to spend time with him, when he so desperately wants to spend time with me and that's going to change.

I think that's it for my life changing events.
I have quite a busy time ahead of me...

Pray for me please?
Ruth

wow. so Epiphany time.

I've been reading back and really thinking about this whole baby situation. I was reading back to where I had that crazy dream of mine about having to give birth all alone and the truth is, I feel really alone. but it has nothing to do with anyone else. I push people away! I keep things from people. I mean no one in my church even knew that hubby and I were trying to have a baby in the first place! How can I expect them to be there for me, in prayer and in need when I don't tell anyone anything?

so it's honesty time. I'm going to let people know that Hubby and I are trying and that it's a real struggle for us. *read: me*

I've been reading this article over and over from the latest issue of "Servant" magazine (issue 85 2010) with an article called "plan b" and I think I'm going to share part of it

"Waiting on God
we talk a lot about Good Friday when redemption happened through the shedding of Christ's blood. Easter Sunday is a day of celebration because Jesus conquered death so we can have life. But we don't hear a lot about Saturday. Saturday seems like a day when nothing is happening. it's a day of questioning, doubting and waiting, a day of hopelessness when we wonder if God is asleep or simply powerless to do anything about our problems. Is it possible though that Saturday is actually a day of preparation when God's getting ready to do his best work in us?"

I've decided to live in Saturday Mode. Not the uncertainty or the doubt or the hopelessness, but the Hope and Anticipation of God's work being done!

at least, that's my plan..
wish me luck!
Ruthi