whoever created wii was a genius! I have burned an entire day's worth of calories in a week. like that's crazy right? Pat and I are really working hard to attempt to beat each other at the amount of time we're on the wii. it's difficult because we only have one wii-mote. (hint hint, birthday is in 4 1/2 months...)

As you likely saw the melt down in my last post this one is a little more up-beat. no I'm still not pregnant. yes I'm trying to lose weight, yes I'm still posting useless information and watching really bad reality tv. but there are some new things

obviously the wii has really helped. there's something about being able to watch that graph go down on a daily basis that makes me really happy, and it encourages me to keep going. even if it is in kilos. Pat and I have tried to "fake the system out" by seeing what each other do, but no luck. *shrugs* we're both okay with that.

Every once in a while I think God might be waiting for me to do something to allow him to let me have a baby. I don't know what that is. and every so often I feel like I've blown my chance. maybe I'm not supposed to be a mom. that would totally suck. and now I've depressed myself.

okay, focus on losing weight, focus on new Sunday School adventure, focus on.. anything... *sigh* maybe it was just like me finding Pat in the first place. like it would happen when I was distracted and wasn't waiting but it's SO hard not to think about it. I mean EVERYONE is getting pregnant and I'm not. It stinks.

le sigh
off to play sims and pretend.
Rs

This is going to be a lot of me whining.

well, The period's here and no baby again.

It's not that I hate my period anymore than any other woman does, it's just that I feel like we've been trying to have a baby forever and every month goes by and no baby!

when do I get one? everyone else seems to get one, it's not fair!

one of the things that really frustrates me is that some of our friends have finished! my friend has actually finished and she's two years younger than me! it's not that I see this as a contest, I mean I've been to Kenya, right, but why isn't it my time? why don't I get one?

my cousin just had her second, and she lost her first one, and my other cousin is pregnant with her second and she didn't even want the first one! I have family who just pop them out like crazy and I don't get any??? it's not fair.

and Now hubby and i are fighting over how many? frig, let me have one before you cut me off please? I just feel like he's being cruel for the sake of being cruel. I mean, I have only 10 years before I can't have them anymore... so then what. I just get none? *sniff* that sucks.

*goes to hug her teddy bear and cry*
~Rs

Omigosh! I have just about had it with Richard Dawkins!. For those of you who don't know, Richard Dawkins is an Atheist and a doctor and he better stay away from Allan, Saskatchewan because if I see him on the street I'm going to throw my shoe at him (and I have very heavy shoes, ask anyone).

I watched him the other day on "The Hour" and I just wanted to go through the Television and strangle him!

To imply that there is the same ammount of evidence to support evolution as there is to support the holocaust is appauling! and to say that those who deny evolution are just as bad as those who deny the holocaust or the moon landing is an insult to anyone who doesn't share his 'unique' perspective.

There is witness account and written evidence and photographs about the holocaust for crying out loud! Those who choose not to believe it happened are usually anti-semetic or just stupid. The theory of evolution (and yes, it is a THEORY not Fact as Dawkins believes) has No witnesses, no witness account, or photographic evidence to support Dawkin's belief. and since non of us were there (insert immiture cheap shot about Dawkins' age here) we can't saw what the "facts" are. We can only interpret the evidence we have and then formulate theories based on those interpretations. You'd think as a "Doctor" and Scientist he would know that. The truth is -outside of Genesis' account of creation- we have as much information about the beginning of the world as we do about what's inside a black hole, or what's on the other side of a wormhole.

One thing he said, in that interview that I think is just hilarious is his idea that the reason we don't see evolution is that we don't live long enough. This is his argument for why there are no intermediate stages 'missing links' between humans and apes. The monkeys (I'm paraphrasing) are biding their time until all the humans die off and then they will kick start the evolution process they've been suppressing all this time. Are you serious??? This is his argument! "There's this thing called being so open minded your brains fall out." ~Richard dawkins http://RichardDawkins.net Now we've seen it with our own eyes.

Now don't get me wrong here. I haven't bought nor read either of Dawkins' books "the God Delusion" or "The greatest show on earth" despite my rabid curiosity. Mostly because if I spend good money on his twaddle it might give his ideas merit - of which they have none. But I have seen enough interviews with him that I know what his "ideas" are. and more importantly, I know what he looks like. Believe me. I've got a steel toed boot with his name on it.

"...when two opposite points of view are expressed with equal intensity, the truth does not nessesarily lie exactly halfway between them. It is possible for one side to be simply wrong." ~Ibid.

Nice of you to admit it "doctor"
~Rs.